It’s Just Stuff

Ah… my first blog post. I wasn’t actually gonna blog. I don’t think I’ll be good at it, don’t think I’ll keep up with it, don’t think my thoughts are interesting enough, and so on. I did figure I’d start one just to show pictures of what’s going on in Brazil.
However, I’m conflicted and wanna share my pain. Jk, it’s not that bad…. Or is it?
Most of you reading this know we were called as missionaries to Brazil. Needless to say, it was an exciting conference for us. To find out this was God’s will for OUR lives was humbling and exciting. We came home and jumped into getting our passports, shots, pricing for international furniture moving companies, etc.
That’s when I realized that it is waaaaay to difficult and expensive to ship our “stuff” soooo… we’ve decided to sell everything! What?! Come again?! Yep, that’s right! This just got a lil harder. I’ve been trying to convince myself that selling everything and starting over isn’t a big deal. It is and it isn’t.
Everyone seems to be divided on this subject.
Some brag that they’re not “attached to their stuff”. Some say, “Well, it’s a sacrifice. What did you expect? ” We also get the infamous, “It’s just stuff”.
This is what I’ve been hearing a lot of lately. Not just from people, but in my own head as well. But….is it “just stuff”?
One definition of stuff, said “worthless things or matter”. Another said, ” personal possessions generally”. I like the latter much better. Personal, there’s the key word. These are MY personal possessions.
Am I carnal for struggling with this? Is God unhappy with me? Does He understand my struggle?
I thought maybe it’s because I literally came into church as teenager with nothing of my own. Not even much of a family. Everything I have is from memories I built with my husband as we dated God’s way and raised our kids as He would have us. I look around and see God’s provision and blessing. I see a gift I was given by our church when my husband lost his job right before Christmas years ago. I see the dining table I JUST received for my 34th birthday. I could go on and on and on…
I’ve been praying for the heart of “it’s just stuff” but God has given me something better. He’s forced me to focus on us. My husband, my 11 yr old, 9 yr old and myself. We love each other and we love to be around each other. Does my legacy lie in my memorabilia…? I guess it could. Or does it lie in us? In my kids? In our grand-kids because we’ve broken curses? In time they’ll look at their lives and see the blessings passed down because we followed God’s will. Of course, we’ll store the most important things here with family, but the majority goes. It’s strange watching strangers walk away with things you don’t wanna part with but, then again, it’s just stuff.

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Happily married Christian mother of two. Gave my life to Jesus at 17 in 1997. He saved me, cleansed me, turned my life and set my feet upon His solid ground. Love Brazil & the US, love to read, love technology and love to homeschool my children and date my husband.

7 thoughts on “It’s Just Stuff

  1. So excited for all God has for you and your loved ones. And nothing is wrong with realizing you have to part with your possessions and feeling the loss. We females are sentimental creatures and God created us that way. Every move I made I had to leave something behind. Never have I had to make the ultimate decision of leaving everything behind. I would possibly go into meltdown mode. I too came into the church with nothing and got married with very little. But, you have realized the most important treasures are your family. God is going to bless you all for the sacrifices your family will make to obey His calling.

      1. Thank you Melody, my husband has never felt the call to go international and that is one bridge I have never had to cross. He was born in Italy and so he feels in a sense that he is on foreign ground. Florida is the furthest I have been and it sometimes feels so far. God has so many blessing in store for your family and ministry. We are praying now for open doors and open hearts.

  2. Thank you for sharing with us. Thank you for including us and making us a part of what you doing with your family. In a way its also preparing those that want to follow in your footsteps. As far as “stuff” or your sacrifice….. You’re faithful, you’re brave and that is awesome.

  3. In my opinion, yes, it’s stuff…but you’re right, it’s YOUR stuff and you have a right to have mixed feelings about getting rid of it. I admire that even though you’re wrestling with what to keep and what to do away with, you’re still giving it all for the sake of the gospel. No matter what you keep, You’re still giving it all. No matter what you get rid of, you’re still giving it all….and don’t ever forget that!
    It’s more than just “stuff,” that you’re letting go of…it’s your day to day life, your country,your freedom, your comfort, your family, your friends…etc
    So as you venture off into this once in a lifetime journey with God and your family, remember one thing, my friend, you ARE giving it ALL…even if you keep a few “little” things.
    I will miss our crazy off the wall conversations like crazy, but I am so honored to have such a brave, adventurous friend as you!
    Thank God for the internet, I can harass you there!!

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